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Lost Sleep and New Beginnings

In Uncategorized on July 27, 2011 at 6:28 am

With every night of lost sleep, I grow closer to truly believing in fatalist philosophy, and doom comes that much closer.

I’ll be sitting in this chair forever, writing things that matter mostly to me.  In my heart I wish good to come upon other people through what I write, but the doom can be overwhelming at times.

Fuck success.  Justice doesn’t exist for me, and this is a blog for me.  From this point on I’m being a greedy bastard with subconsciously good intentions.

I secretly beg you to read my words.  I squeeze truth out of my brain and honesty follows.  It’s a tainted honesty, but honesty will always be honesty.

Explanations are my despised brothers and sisters.  I’ve grown tired of such families.

My subconscious wants to help you, and lack of sleep renders me useless.  My eyes are tired.  Yours are too.  Tonight we have nothing to give.


A New Standard

In Uncategorized on July 17, 2011 at 2:41 am

I must hold myself up to a new standard, one that doesn’t accept all of the shit that I’ve been putting together.  I can write words, currently I’m obsessed with them, but just because I write them down on paper or screen doesn’t mean it’s art.  It especially doesn’t mean it’s worthwhile to anybody else but me.

My new standard is the old standard.  It’s contained in books written about how form and style should be; it’s what everybody’s expecting.  I will learn and follow the old rules of convention while I write.  That is my new standard.  I’ll stay with it for only so long, but now I must follow it because this standard is higher and more knowledgeable than any I’ve ever set up for myself. Read the rest of this entry »