Timothy Timothy

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Hereditarily Kickass

In Uncategorized on April 24, 2011 at 6:04 am

I can do anything I want and amaze people with it.  It’s part of my genes.  I don’t know where it really comes from, and part of me believes it’s possible with anybody.

But I do know that it is indeed the way I’m built.  I can’t juggle, but give me a week and some dedication and I’ll prove that I can be a kick ass juggler.  It’s the way the story goes for me and my family.

I see it mostly in my younger brother too.  Another reason why I’m not just saying this to give myself a positive mental attitude about it and convince myself that I’m better than I am.  I see it in practice in him.  It’s in the blood.

And luckily that blood is my blood.  How lucky am I?  Damn lucky.

I used to be a lot more free with it when I was in high school.  I just picked up whatever I wanted and started kicking its ass right away.  Now that I’m in college and have to worry about being a responsible adult I’m more in my own way.  I’ve set up barriers of procrastination that keep me from focusing on anything important to me.  It’s really an addiction, and it sucks.

But being reminded of my awesome inheritance gives me some temporary relief.  It could even turn into something solid to build off of.  Only if I let it, though.

Only time will tell that one.  The blood is there and it rushes through my arms and legs and heart and guts.  It’s there.

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TV vs Meditation

In Uncategorized on April 22, 2011 at 4:31 am

It should be an easy decision to make.  Should I continue watching TV, or should I go down to my room, read, and learn something about/through meditation?  It should be an easy answer, but it never is.

The prior is the easier path.  The easier path is more comfortable.  I like being comfortable.  I really like being comfortable, but the correct answer is to choose the latter option.  That’s what’s right for me right now.  That’s what will give to me.  The former only gives me complacency and false security while nothing gets done.

I’m glad I’m reflecting on this right now.

Escape From Social Media Mountain

In Uncategorized on April 13, 2011 at 5:03 am

As much as I would like to deny it, I think I have an unassuming addiction to Twitter and/or Facebook.  There are too many days and nights when I find myself instinctively checking in on these message centers to see if any interactions have been made.  These things can wait.  I don’t want this to be my next nervous tick.

I don’t want to fall into the comforting blanket of social media programs.  The social connectivity I don’t mind losing myself in, but sometimes I let the Facebook/Twitter applications take me over.  I wrap myself up in this comfort blanket when depression hits.  It’s all too easy to get lost in the Facebook pages of friends late at night instead of… anything else.

Goodnight world.  Goodnight net.  I won’t willingly fight you any more.  I will put you in your place.  I will be peaceful about it, so don’t taunt me into bringing out the violent weaponry and kick your face.

HahahaHAHAHAha!!!

In Uncategorized on April 12, 2011 at 4:30 am

BWAHAHAhahAhAHAHAHA!!!

My faith in humanity has been restored yet again, and I see a small sliver of light.

There may be nobody to listen to me in the real world right now, but the internet is full of connections to amazing people who care enough to hear me out.

She doesn’t have ears for my words.  Neither does he.  Or that guy.  Or my professors.  But someone in the world does.  Ha, and I know they’re there for me to connect with.

I know they live beyond the line

that is defined by what isn’t mine.

The work they do is mighty fine.

High and low up the horizon

and down the pine.

The crime isn’t in losing yourself

but in setting a shelf

and sitting with arms crossed

feeling lost

and never finding your way home

to the people who can always be there

to fill up your lovely tomb.